With my birthday coming soon, something about this birthday feels even worse then previous. Just when I thought this years birthday would be different from the rest it’s just the same ole same ole. Yet again my birthday I’m celebrating being single. My parents keep asking about her and if she is gonna come celebrate and eat with me on my birthday. Answer is simple, no. Well time to countdown on my mediocre 20th year of my life. Let the festivities begin. 

I’m tired of stressing out over this, I can’t let you go but since you’re not ready then I’m only waiting longer. But at the end of the day waiting for you and being with you is well worth it at the end. I hope you’ll come back to me soon.

Yup too good to be true. It’s one step forward and 3 steps back. Now what….

Lately I’ve been confused of what has happened for the past couple of weeks. Even though we have now went separate ways. We got back not to long ago. Are we together or not? And the way you talk seems like everything is back the way it was a month ago. I just don’t understand.

Please don’t be mad at me….. I didn’t know

I wish you were mine again. Time will tell

I can’t believe we’ve been broken up for 48 hours….I can’t believe we broke up in general. Last night I received a text from you, I’m not gonna lie it made me smile and happy. I don’t  know how you’re feeling right now but I miss you. I can’t go through a morning without thinking about you or wanting to see you. I just hope soon that you realize how important I was in your life and you would take me back. That’s the only thing I’m hoping for. People have told me to stop thinking about you..But how? We have spent every single day together for the past 6 months..Maybe that is what lead us to our downfall. People have told me to hangout with people rather than think about you….i don’t have that many friends to be honest. This is the lowest point of my life but as each day passes I’m gonna grow stronger, better, and more perfect because I want you back and maybe one day you too would want me back. I may sound pathetic in these texts but I have to write my thoughts somewhere. I just hope you love me again

I’m sorry,

Chris Luu

I wish she would come up to me and say everything will be ok

The heart needs many things. The heart needs oxygen, the heart needs blood flow, the heart needs to be healthy and the heart needs love. Love is a term that I believe I used to know, it is a term that has been overused in our generation. I thought I knew what love is. I am a guy who believes in long term relationships, a guy that believes in romantic gestures, a guy that would do anything for that special someone. It is a Thursday morning and I’m sitting on my couch recovering from what I have encountered in the last 24 hours. My heart hurts. Some may laugh at this and think I’m some kind of a hopeless romance. I met my soulmate when I was 19 years old… 6 months has passed and with each day with her I feel much more completed each day. But in a relationship it’s not just an one sided equation. My soulmate told me that I deserve better, and that it was a selfish act to break up with me for her personal reason. But I’m here to tell you that when you love someone as much as I do….you never stop trying. Even though the spark isn’t there anymore and maybe it will never will but she will always have a place in my heart. I lost her last night….I tried so many ways to make it work but it wasn’t enough. But I would always cherish all the memories we had when we were together. It is more difficult to embrace what happened…everything reminds me of her, music, places, things what people do. Life is somewhat unfair however for me I have no where else to go but to learn from this relationship and move on. Maybe one day we will get back together and one day we may not. You were the best thing that has ever happened to me, I wish you would come to realization that I will always be there for you and hopefully you will come back to me. 

I’m sorry,

Chris Luu

Nothing I do pleases you is there!